Yesterday was not such a great day. We all have those days where we just want to get back into bed and wait for a fresh start in the morning, even if that means sleeping through the entire day to reach the next one. Well, yesterday was that day for me. Fortunately, throughout this deployment, I really haven't had too many of those days, so I do have to say I'm very thankful for that. I'm also thankful that the good Lord got me through it and that He allowed me to wake up to a fresh start this morning.
I won't go into detail about yesterday, why revisit it, but I will say this... my kids were driving me crazy, our plans for the day were cancelled due to their behavior (side note: I even got up early to attend the early church service to accommodate our plans) and I just needed a hug from my husband. His hugs can work miracles to make my day better and yesterday a hug would have been perfect. I do have to say this, God works in mysterious ways and he uses these trying days to pull us closer to Him. I wouldn't trade the rough days for just that reason.
It really amazes me how God can work in people without us even knowing it. If I didn't know any better I would think my husband could read my mind at times even from thousands of miles away. Just when I'm at that point where I feel I need to hear his voice or even just get a short message from him to know that he's okay, it happens. Coincidence? I think not! As Dawn O'Brien says on the radio quite frequently,"There's no such thing as coincidence, it's all God-incidence". I love that saying! Thanks Dawn!
Yesterday was one of those days where I needed to hear from him. Not just because it was a bad day in general but because I was aware from various sources that something had happened while they were on mission, but I didn't know what that something was. Towards the end of the day Trint was able to message me though skype. He didn't have a cam or even a mic but at least I heard from him. He didn't have long to talk, but he said he had a headache that he couldn't get rid of and he'd tell me more later. Of course there were the usual I love yous and I miss yous too. I was a little more at ease just knowing he was okay. However, that led me to wondering why he had a headache and wishing I was there to take care of him. I fell asleep last night just praying for his headache to go away and that not just my husband would be okay, but their convoy as a whole. It turns out there were injuries, but as far as I know, everyone is going to be fine.
As hard as it is to hear that people have been injured or even worse, I have to say that I'm so blessed to have a husband that keeps me informed. It is so much easier for me to know straight from him what's going on. Plus, I feel better knowing specifically what to pray for. I'm sure everyone feels differently about this and some spouses probably don't want to know at all, but for me, I'd rather him tell me than to hear from someone else and not have all the accurate information. For me personally, not knowing and hearing several different rumors about the same thing is much worse than knowing what my husband is going through. I'm just glad he feels comfortable coming to me and I love that I can listen to him and be here for him.
At the same time, I'm so glad I can feel comfortable venting my frustrations to him and knowing that he's also here for me. I've seen it written in so many military writings that it's best to keep the bad things here so your soldier can keep his mind on his mission. In some cases I'm sure that's true. For us, my husband wants to hear what we're going through, the good and the bad. Of course I always try to emphasize the good, but if one of our kids is having a hard time at school, or if one of us is going through something, he should know. It's a fact that life isn't all roses and cotton candy so I'm not going to pretend that it is when I'm talking to my husband. He always picks it up in my voice when something is a little off anyhow, so it's better that he know what it is than to have to wonder. I'm confident that when my husband is on the computer he can spend that time to focus on us as a family and when he signs off, he can focus all of his attention to the job in front of him, or his sleep as it may be. HeHe! Just thought I'd throw that in there.
I'll end by saying this: In the good times and the bad, God has never failed to be right next to me. He's there when things are going great and He really shows up in big ways when things are not going so well. All it takes is a little faith to find His strength and peace that can get you through anything.
