A New Day

I woke up this morning somewhat refreshed, considering my girls were awfully wiggly last night, and was determined to get through the day with a smile. I came downstairs, phone in hand of course, to make my coffee, which Trint always had waiting for me every morning. That was the first reminder of what we face for the next year. Sometimes it's the little things that drudge up the tears. I just forced a smile and a good thought of how thankful I am to be married to such a thoughtful man. I poured a cup of coffee and went to sit down with the girls in the living room. A short while later I heard my phone ding, which was on the kitchen island just steps away. Of course with Trint gone, every time it makes a sound I run to it as quick as I can. When I got there is said I had a voice mail. My phone never even rang so instantly my heart sank. I just knew it was my husband calling to tell me his plane landed at their first stop. I listened to the message and sure enough it was him. He had made it to the first stop like I had thought. The only problem is that he sounded sad which made me missing his call just that much worse. Then I looked up the last numbers that called my phone and it didn't even have a new number listed. I had no number to call him back at. I felt so bad, like I had disappointed him and he didn't even know why I didn't answer. I know he wasn't upset with me, he knows me well enough to know something had to have gone wrong for me not to answer. Still, I just want to be here for him, and I wasn't. I made myself come to terms with it and reassured myself that he would understand and he will call back the next possible chance he gets. However, if my phone screws it up again, I'm throwing it out the window for sure! Next week I will be sporting a new phone for sure!

The girls decided to stay home from school today but Tristan decided he didn't want to miss the day. It was a short day and Tristan likes his schedule on short days. Plus he doesn't want his homework to pile up so much that it takes a lot of time to catch up. The girls however will take a day off whenever it's offered to them. I gave them the choice today because yesterday was a rough day for us all. I know I wouldn't have functioned very well if I had to go to school after telling my husband goodbye, so why should I force them to go. The girls and I just hung out at home watching movies and Disney channel.

When Tristan got out of school we picked him up at the teen center and headed to the church office to drop off the thousand plus eggs that Trint and I filled. Of course loading the eggs in the truck just reminded me how helpful my husband was to help me fill the eggs that I volunteered to do on my own. Again, I had to hold back tears. As I talked to the director to ask if there was anything else I could take home to work on, I explained that I have more time on my hands that I need to keep occupied to keep my mind busy. Again, holding back tears as I said that Trint left yesterday. I did pretty good holding them back though so I know it will get easier to say the words without tears welling up. It is after all our first day without him home. I got a new project to occupy a little time and we were on our way.

Next stop was the mall to see "Soul Surfer". I've wanted to see this movie since our pastor mentioned it at church one Sunday a while back. That was before the previews even came out. Trint wants to see it too so I was hoping his deployment would be delayed a couple days so he could go with us. Obviously that didn't happen. Even if it had there would just be something else I would want it delayed for again. Of course that made me think again of the fact that he isn't here to enjoy it with his family. However, this time, no tears. I just thought of how I should buy all the new movies we see while he's gone and watch them with him when he gets home. For him it would be seeing a new movie, for me it will just be cuddling on the couch with him.

In case you were wondering, the movie was fabulous! I would recommend everyone go see it. What an amazing young woman Bethany is. She's a true example of courage and strength. Whenever I feel down I will think of her and of everything she's overcome. Nothing is too big for our God. I always love it when a movie comes to the theater that shares a life message of hope and encouragement. A movie I can take my kids to that they enjoy watching and that teaches them a valuable life lesson. Bethany is someone any parent would want as a role model for their children. Praise God for Bethany's story and the positive impact she's had on so many people. That just goes to show you that everything does happen for a reason. God allows tragedy to happen to better people and to help those around them. God is so amazing!

To conclude our day we came home, had dinner and are watching Disney channel together as a family. The day went fast as I pray every day does until he finally comes home. As with Bethany's story, this is all happening for a reason and before too long we are going to see some amazing results come out of the heartache we feel. I can't wait to see what God has in store for my family. Mark my words, it's going to be Amazing!